First trade of New Year/Blog Status and life

First and only trade of the New Year. Nice setup but as so many times I was too close on my stop. I wanted to buy LVS at HOD or around 49. I placed my first buy at 49.01 - big seller at round number. I got filled and it pulled back. Added to it with HOD at 49.05. After a 30 cent run - I peeled half at 49.25 and debated where to put my stop. I thought below 49 but that would be a loss so I put it at 49.08 and it got hit -damn.
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I do not know what to do going forward with my blog or trading. I maybe one day at a time. A lot of shit has happened in the last two months. 10 days ago my dad died. I am not heart broken about it or sad because his life was falling apart and he really wanted to die. He had enough of life. He died very quickly which was how he wanted to die. I will not go into details but in many ways he was a strange man that for many unknown reasons never got close to me.
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My dads death was kind of a burden off my shoulders in a weird way knowing he was not happy. His death also made some other things easier for my mom. They are divorced and she could use the extra SS benefits. Long story that I need not get into.
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During the last two months, I also had a health scare where I had some inflection that took 4 rounds of drugs and some shots of penicillin to go away. And my daughter had some crazy shit happen too.
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Not a fun couple of months. I tried trading the first part of December but nearly every trade was a loser. I just should have even tried.
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So going forward, I am trying to put my head, heart and body back together. I do not know if I will trade in the process or not and even blog about it.
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Good luck to all in the New Year and I will be back at some point - maybe even Monday - lol.