This Weeks Results - 8/15/2011-8/19/2011

Stocks: +89.89
Dow Futures: +62.44
Crude Oil: +310.32
Gold Futures: +130.72
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net: +593.37
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I lost my nerve so many times this week it was not funny. To watch a stock break out - fill me with a few cent slip - reverse in two seconds 15 cents - me hit the out button only to see it move 40 cents in what would have been my favor. I did the same on 3 YM trades also. Could of had a big week as always. When am I going to grow a pair of balls? My time of this planet is closer to the end than the beginning.

This Weeks Results 8/8/2011-8/12/2011

Swing: +754.34
Stocks: -556.79
Gold Futures: +355.00
Crude Futures: +53.30
Dow Futures: -20.44
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Net + 585.41
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This week as in nearly every week was stupid for me. I started out on Sunday night to buy the first low and just play for a couple 100. Worked perfectly. Turned to Oil and lost 1/2 of my dow future gain. Then cooled until day break.
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Got frustrated with the markets falling and play PG - about the only stock up on Monday. Top ticked a long. Hour later - top ticked a second long. So stupid.
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Went long gold that night. Gained a little and bailed. No guts to hold and it could have been a huge gain. I had a lot of problems with gold this week being unable to take trades.
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Bailed on a swing that will I think go higher just to relieve some of the mental pressure of this week.
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All in all I am pissed at this week. Too many trades I did not take. Broke my trading rules on two trades and got hurt both times. Revenge traded a trade and got hurt.
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Not happy. The only thing I am happy about is that I am nearly even for the year after making a good attempt to blow accounts up. I am correcting my mistake quicker. Now if I could only let my winners run more often.

This Weeks Results 8/1/2011-8/5/2011

Stocks: +167.72
Crude Futures: +507.08
Stock Futures: +302.90
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Net +977.70
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Nearly meant my weekly goal of a $1000 a week. Left so much money on the table. Could have been the greatest week of my trading career. Hopefully the craziness with last this week.

This weeks Results 7/25/2011-7/29/2011

Dow Futures: +70.66
Crude Futures: +88.66
Stocks: -57.89
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Net: +101.43
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A positive week but I am really pissed at myself. I pulled a trade two seconds before I would have been in it for one of my biggest miss-trades. I could not get another trade in because I was seconds slow and Trade Station rejected my order. And most of all I am pissed that I let a new position which gapped down on Friday totally throw me for a loss that I has unable to take advantage of the market. Many good trades missed. I really feel like I am a loser when my brain goes to mush.
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Simple - plan the trade - trade the plan.

This weeks results 7/18/2011- 07/22/2011

Not a bad week. Had two good trades with a bunch of scratches. I am happy with the results for once.
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Gold Futures: +30.72
Stocks: +185.12
Crude Futures: +637.28
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net +853.12

This weeks results 7/11/2011-7/15/2011

Why don't you quit someone asked me this week. It made me stop and think for a while. I have come close to quitting a couple of times. I took time off at others. I started thinking about my dad. He never knew how to play golf and no one would teach him or I would guess he did not want to ask. He taught myself. He teach myself wrong too. He gripped the club wrong but after years and years of practice he became a fairly decent golfer. He was no pro but won many tournaments against many club pros. I took a long time to get there. I asked him why. He said he never knew when to quit. Win or lose - he just loved doing it.
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Now with my trading over the years it had taken on so many different forms and my goals changed a lot - from trying to get a little extra for a special trip, to college eduction, to retirement. Today and for the last 5 years, my goal has been to be able to make enough money on a regular basis where I do not have to worry about having a job.
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After 5 years, I have little to show for it in my bank account. Instead I lost money last year and not doing much better this year. But under the hood, I know I have learned a lot. I see patterns better. I have trading plans. I know what I am doing. I know about risk. I have methods. I know most books can't teach me anything I really do not already know.
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I know what is keeping me from succeeding is myself - my emotions. Nothing else. I am close to seeing the goal become alive. As I sit here, I also know, I may not ever be successful at this last step or it may take me years. I do know that now that my dad is gone, my mother is taken care of in a home, and my daughter is off on her own - I can really just think about myself with the pressure off. I also hope to fix a few medical issues I have had and can only help me more.
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So I think to myself why the fuck would I ever quit now??? Game on.
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All I have to do is plan the trade and then trade the plan.
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Stock Futures: +201.12
Stocks: +199.31
Crude Futures: -15.34
Gold Futures: zero
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net: +385.09

This weeks results 7/4/2011-7/8/2011

Stocks - 1.91
Stock Futures: -119.44
Crude Futures: +69.32
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Net: -62.03
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I whimped out of so many trades this week - it was not funny but very painful to my bottom line.